THIRSTY 🔞

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Will you stay with me tonight 

And pretend it's all alright 

 Tell me that you love me 

 The way you used to love me 

Chaeyoungs POV

I was shaking, I wanted to scream. I wanted to slap him ,punch him , I wanted to push all the pain I have in my heart to him. And so I did, punching him on his chest as I cry heavily. All I think of is

 -HOW CAN YOU JUST GIVE UP?!- 

Why Taehyung? Why is it easy for you to say that when I'm right here in front of you. You just don't know how it pains me seeing you like this. Just when I stepped inside our house and saw you laying weakly on the floor crying over our wedding picture, you just don't know how I tried to stop myself from locking you in my arms. I wanted to scream this to you frustratedly , Wanted to let you know how I hated myself because I was never the same without you. And no matter how I try to move on, It has always been you and I hated it!  Because you just easily give up on me just like that while here I am AGAIN, beside you. I couldn't take it anymore as words  burst out of my mouth like sharp knives starting to pull out,

"That's it! There's always a BUT in between Taehyung. You could have said you're sorry and that's it! Our marriage is already in chaos but here I am still with you. Didn't you see? Are you blind? You're so stupid! So so STUPID!! Fuck it!" i shouted as tears fall heavily nonstop in my eyes.  I can see him being confused and I swear I wanted to knock his head off. Does he think I moved on when when all I could think of was him. 

He was speechless as his eyes meets mine. I held my hand up  cause I wanted to slap him hard just so he would wake up and finally see that if I was willing to let him go and if I had moved on I wouldn't be here in this goddamn house. I  wouldn't be here beside him crying my heart out from this pain yet I am here. 

And as my hand swing on his face the slap I intended to do was gone as I held his frail face cupping it gently with all the love I had in me. See Taehyung? How could you say you'd let me go when here I am finally giving up on denying that I don't want you in my life because,

" All i ever wanted was YOU Taehyung. Please.... Please take me back." 

Taehyungs POV

I couldn't say anything, I was in a total shock for I didn't expect her to still love me back when all I did was hurt her. I wanted to say everything that I feel, that i am happy that she didn't give up on me while here I am stupidly just let her go , that I love her so bad I hated myself for causing her too much pain but I failed because I keep on hurting her. I was shaking, my body was weak from all this crying and I am emotionally drained, my brain is a wreck since eversince I finally remembered everything the accident keeps replaying in my mind like a nightmare and I wanted to kill Sowon for causing all of this but I know I have no right to dirty my hands in getting the justice I wanted yet here I am, In front of the person I love the most in this world and that no matter how I tried to let go she never wanted to. 

How lucky I am to have you Chaeyoung.

 How lucky. 

Words were left unsaid instead, with all the strength that was left in me I pulled her in my arms and held her tight. 

It took long minutes before I gathered my thoughts and say the words I wanted her to hear. 

"I'm so sorry for letting you go. I'm so sorry for causing you pain. I'm so sorry for giving up so easily. I'm so sorry for not remembering you. I thought I wasn't enough. I thought you were better off without me because I'm an asshole. A mother fucking idiot! I love you so much Chaeyoung. I love you. I love you. I love you." i said it over and over as we cry together on the floor, pouring my hearts out and before I knew it, maybe because I haven't gotten any sleep nor have eaten anything, 

I passed out. 

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I woke up in a familiar scent lingering in my nose with small hands wrapping my waist and one in my head serves as my small little pillow. A smile crept in my face when I remembered what happened last night. 

After passing out in the floor I remembered waking up with my members tucking me in bed while my wife cleaned me and gave me a bowl of hot congee. I still couldn't believe I am in the arms of the woman I love. It was so surreal and i continue to close my eyes as i press my face on the center of her chest while my hands locked her in my embrace. I'm afraid to open my eyes thinking she'd be gone when I do so. But then I felt her fingers slowly brush my hair as she hums. The breeze that washes through the curtains in the open glass window send fresh delight in my body  with the birds chirping and the sounds of her soft gentle voice humming some melodies so as her strawberry smell lingering my nose makes me sigh in contentment. 

I just wanted to stay here forever.

She might have felt that I'm awake and that it seems like I don't have any  plan on letting my hands go so I heard her chuckle softly. Oh how I miss those laughs, nothing beats waking up in the morning  beside her cuddling. 

I felt her lips gently brush my ears, "Good Morning." 

I wide grin flash on my face as I opened my eyes moving a little up to meet her eyes. I am indeed LUCKY. I then leaned my forehead into hers, 

"Good Morning,baby."