FATALISTIC LOVE ✓

XXXVIII

let's talk about my past.

why was I so cold, so closed off and so reluctant on becoming more with you? why was I so afraid of falling into you?

I'd been hurt before, but haven't we all? it's inevitable.

I suffered trauma due to the experience. I built walls around me and locked myself away.

I'd been hurt by a man who abused me physically and emotionally for a year when I was eighteen. then he left me, disappeared and found his next female victim.

I fell into a destructive cycle of depression, self harm and anxiety. no one knew and I never told you either. it's a deep secret.

my parents never knew, they were always too busy with Rhea, financial issues or themselves. I got through the horror on my own.

and here I am, finally learning to let go of you.

thank you for helping to fix me.

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a few chapters left :)

how do we feel about val?

thanks for everything guys

I should really start doing authors notes again

A.