RIGID || TaeJin ☑️

Part 43

He is so handsome in beret hat and round glasses. He smiled at me when he noticed me staring at him.

"T-Tae-hyung?"

He stared at me, trying to recognize my face. Did it changed? I honestly do think my face still looks the same at 30. "Uhmmm.. Yes I'm Taehyung. You look oddly familiar. Sorry but, do I know you?"

My heart starts to beat faster. I smiled. "Tae.. it's me.. Jin." Your boyfriend. I stared on those very familiar eyes. But he just furrowed his eye brows and smiled.

"Jin?" He's thinking hard as he rub his chin with his fingers. "I'm really sorry Jin, but I don't know you. Have we met before?" He asked. "But believe me, you look familiar."

My heart breaks.

I started to become more confused. Is this really Taehyung? Why he didn't recognize me?

Oppa!

I looked back. I swear I heard Chanri's voice. It's faint but I swear I heard it.

"Chanri?" I said while looking around.

"You know my daughter?" Taehyung asked.

"Of course I know Chanri. Where is she?" I asked as I look around the store. My tears fell. If this is a joke, I swear I'm not liking it.

"They just buy clothes. By the way, how did you know my daughter? Are you her teacher before here in Korea?"

My heart breaks into pieces.

I can't believe I'm crying again. In frustration. "Taehyung.. this is me. Seokjin. Kim Seokjin."

He shakes his head. "I'm sorry mister but, I don't know any Kim Seokjin."

Now into millions.

"Jin!" I heard Namjoon called. He was shocked like I, when he saw the man standing in front of us. "Taehyung?"

"Namjoon! Nice to see you again." He greeted Namjoon and it made me more puzzled than before. He knew Namjoon but how come he didn't know me? Is he trying to hide from me and pretending he didn't know me?

"Did you have the chance talk? I mean, you and Jin?" Namjoon asked Taehyung.

"He didn't know me Joon." I whispered while I wiped my tears.

"Is he your boyfriend Namjoon?" Taehyung asked.

Namjoon looked at me and back at Taehyung. I pinched his arm so as not to create more scenes. "Uh.. no. We're bestfriends. When did you arrive?"

Taehyung smiled. Those smiles that I terribly missed. "Two months ago."

So he was here two months ago and I didn't know. Why Jimin didn't even bother to tell me?

"Really? Who's with you?" Namjoon asked again.

"My daughter and my girlfriend. I just bought UNO cards for my daughter."

Girlfriend? He has a girlfriend? So he moved on? Is that the same reason why Jungkook wants me to move on? Am I the only one still hanging on? Am I the only one still hoping that he will come back for me?

This time, my heart shattered.

I think my knees went weak, Namjoon helped me stand. I think I'm going to pass out. I don't know what's happening.

I pinched myself just to make sure I'm not dreaming. And yes, I'm awake.

"Let's go now Joon. I can't stay here." I said. I really think I'm going to pass out anytime. I picked up the toy that I will buy for Soobin and turned my back away.

"We have to go Tae. It's nice seeing you again. Maybe we can have coffee some other time?" Namjoon asked.

"Yeah sure. You know my number right?" I heard Tae said.

"Joon!" I called, not looking behind me. I gave the toy to Namjoon and run out of the store.

I went straight to the toilet to vomit. I don't know why but I suddenly felt nauseous. I cried inside the cubicle. I can't comprehend what's happening.

I felt a little bit of hope when I saw him face to face earlier. Expecting that he will ask how I am now. I am so excited to tell him about our son. But how can I tell him about Soobin if he didn't recognize me at all? He will only tell me that I am one crazy desperate man asking a rich man like him to father my son. Maybe he will tell me that it's not possible that he'll have a son to a stranger.

Because, I am now a stranger to him.

And he has a girlfriend. Who is she? Why is it so easy for him to find a new one? Did he really forget about me? Did he really moved on? But he said I look familiar. I am sure he recognized me but he just can't remember my name. But why? He knew Namjoon and not me. Why is that?

It took me almost half an hour to finally went out of the cubicle. My eyes already puffy and I think my whole face is pale. Namjoon was just outside waiting.

"I already buy a burger for Soobin. Are you okay Jin?"

"I just wish I didn't see him again. I'm starting to be okay Joon." So.. I cried again. "But he just made my feelings worst than before. I'm feeling better lately Joon! Why is this happening now? I deserve to be happy right? Everyone deserves to be happy. But am I feeling this now?"

"Am I a bad person? Why am I suffering like this? What have I done wrong to experience this kind of pain Namjoon? All I want is to be happy. I lost my sister Ara. I lost Taehyung. He came back just to wrecked me again. Why? Joon, all I know is I am a good person. Why is this happening to me?"

Namjoon pulled me and hugged me. "Ssshhhhh.. I don't have the answers to all your questions but all I can say is, indeed, you are one precious and kind-hearted human being Jin. I am not a professional to answer your other questions but we will find out soon. Please don't be too hard to yourself. Be strong.. for Soobin."

Soobin. My precious innocent Soobin. How I wish you'll meet your father soon. But I'm afraid he will not acknowledge you. He didn't know me. How will he even accept my Soobin as his son?

Everything seemed to be uncertain now.