Is this is called Love?!'

Just accept me...!

Vikroon's view..,
A

fter proposing JANVI,
Now I feel my heart filled as I poured out all my feelings to her.....
But not wholesome as she didn't say her opinion to me....I thought ways to propose her...like taking her out and in a natural surroundings setting up cake and ballons..and proposing her.. buying jewellery , or even by taking her to Paris and proposing infront the symbol of Love Eiffel tower...
Buy all was in vain ... I didn't Think of kissing her like this but that time I was so angry on her for speaking about divorce and afraid of her leaving me...and my love all mosxed up and atlast I end up landing my lips on hers
The ultimate part is she gave me the same feeling of forgetting what is really or think that the when I kiss her even after a year
....

I was on my drive to my home ..to pick up Janvi ....
I had so many plans for new year like taking her out , making her feel more comfortable on me ... Going for dinner and even I thought if taking her to see Taj Mahal as she had said she haven't seen it before.  
Buy now it ended up reverse ....the phone rang interuppting my thoughts....
It's Shaurya...  That idiot...
I was driving because Abhishek is making arrangements for my leave to Pakistan this week with in three days for 5 ODI matches.   But though inspite of driving I picked up the call
As my phone was connected through Bluetooth...
"Vikroon..."
"Kya ....?" ( What ?) I asked...
"Sorry yaar. ..! I really thought you are living a life with that girl " .... He said. .
"Shut up you Idiot ....she is not
'that girl'....she is my Jaan my wife and love..." I shouted...
" Okay okay.... Your wife Jaan..." He said softly...
"Jaan only for me.... It's sister for you ...." I huffed and heard him giggle
"Ayiii babe... What's my sister name?" He asked ..
"Janvi Vikroon Kohli"... I said and he laughed again...
"Achaa... Do you love her that much??" He asked ...
"As much as  my cricket..." I said..
Then he was silent for sometime
After my family and janvi's family the person who know all that happened before marriage is Shaurya... He knows my all and all my secrets...but not the kiss with Janvi on the day before new year...

and then he continued...
" Sorry Vikroon... I thought you married Janvi due to some 'do or die'  circumstances ....so ....and moreover you once told me... that you just accepted this for the sake of custom and you are even ready to come out of this commitment whenever time permits so..."
Yeap In the beginning days after Janvi and my Marriage I planned to even leave this relationship after some months... because I don't want Janvi to be in this relationship without her acknowledge...   But my days changed with her....no actually she changed me..

"Actually I should ask you to apologise...if I expressed all my feeling to you ...I should have exclaimed this too... Shaurya I was in dilemma whether I really love her or not .....because she is exactly not my type... But now I am madly in love with her...that I can't imagine my life without her..."
...I said as I altered my Car ...and came out of my car .....
"Oh... Vikroon bhaji.... When this loverboy came out of you...???.is this arrow from cupid is strong....?..."...
He asked laughing as I started walking towards inside the house....I saw my Bruno ( dog)  running towards me...I bent down band pattered his head as I continued to laugh with him...
"Bhaji....yes it is .... I am damn sure it's string enough...." I said and there was some Silence....between us as I pattered my Bruno babe...
"Vikroon.... don't mistake me... I just wanna ...." He shrugged ...
"Go ahead... Dhostie......"...I said...
" No actually It was.... Anupama who made me do this .."  Shaurya said making my eyebrows raise...
"What the fuck are you saying?" I asked loudly ...
"Sorry Vikroon... It was Anupama who called me a week back and exclaimed that she still loves you...I know you people broke up and you even married ...but she said that you married Janvi but struggling to come out of that relationship and that's why you are away from Anupama....and I too thought..." He shrugged...
"And you fucker thought it's true and sent those paper na?"...I asked in the same mode of voice...
"sorry Vikroon we are not in that much contact for past two years we didn't even see...so I was confused of your needs... And obviously I know how you loved Anupama truely and seriously so...." He shrugged...