Vivah-A Journey From Engagement To Marriage MaNan FF (Completed)

~Chapter 35~ It Hurts To Hurt You

Manik's POV

Where did I put myself in? who I am? What I am doing? These are all the questions which I asked myself 100th times after Cabir said those words to me in office. Where did I was wrong Nandini? Kya nahi kiya tumhare liye. Wo sab kiya jo tumhe pasand tha. Tumhare kehne par I take the chances of my individual carrier. Par tumne kyun nahi samja mujhe? Kaha tha maine that my happiness lies in my family. Then why?

I stared at the ceiling fan of my room. it's been 24 hours since I broke my engagement with her. I am not at peace Nandini. Hurting you is the last thing I want to do. But you led me no option. I in anger spoke so mean words to you. I regret every word of it now. I know I am so wrong so wrong that even I can't face you now. but it's hurting Nandini. I can't live without you. I just can't. it hurts in my heart. It breaks in million pieces when I see you crying. I know tum bahot hurt ho, aur me bahot sharminda hu tumhe hurt karne ke liye. You know Nandini I let everyone down. You, Dad, Cabir and your whole family. God knows what all of them are thinking about me.

I got up from my bed and went to the guitar which she had gifted me a couple of night ago. I tuned it and played some random melody. Tears brimmed in my eyes. I caressed the mark on the guitar. "MaNan". A smile appeared on my lips.

"Manik ka 'Ma' aur Nandini ka 'Nan' Manan hamesha"

I still remember her words, how much she believed in me. She trusted you dam it. And what did you do? You broke her trust?

"but what about Dad Manik?" My mind was again recalling the moments happened on previous night. I sighed deeply.

"what was Nandini's mistake Manik? She stood by your side. You only asked her to stay on your side forever. Didn't you?" My heart will always take Nandini's side. I know him very well.

"yes, but we can't even forget that she misbehaved with Dad in front of everyone." Again a blame on her from my mind.

"ask your self Manik, did Nandini disrespect your father? Or did you disrespect her dignity and her upbringing?" I know I was wrong. So so wrong that I cannot even look in to anyone's eye.

"no I don't think so; he did wrong thing. He did right. Nandini crossed her limits on accusing Dad, so did Manik. What's wrong in that?" stop please.. My heart is hurting please.

"Don't say such words you dumb head. It hurts inside. And Manik stop listening to him. Listen to me. Go to her and apologise. She loves you. She will understand. I know. You know." He is right. I at least should apologise to her for my inappropriate behaviour. May be she will take time. But she will come back. A ray of hope.

"yah yah go and get her back. And then what will happen? Again she will disrespect your father. Tell me if I am wrong. Dear heart, do you take the responsibility that Nandini will never do such thing again. Do you? Answer me?" yes there is no way one could take responsibility. She is too stubborn. God... why these things happens to me?

"I am taking full responsibility. She will never do this again. And so what if she does this again. She loves you. She wants you happy Manik. Doesn't your happiness lay in music?" I know, my happiness lay in music but...

"no Manik, your happiness lay in your family. The family who got you in this life. They gave you so much. Now it's time to repay."

Okay I have had enough of both of you. Don't fight please. It's hurting. Mind and Heart both.

"we understand Manik, we too feel the pain" they both spoke to gather. I smiled sarcastically. At least for one thing they both agreed to gather. I sighed and placed the guitar back on its place and sat on the bed, plunging my head in my palms.