RETURN MY LOVE PLEASE

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(Gon's POV)

Kiss?

Killua's literally kissing me right now?
But wait? Why? Aren't we both guys?
But why do I feel like this? It feels like I'm floating it feels so good.

Killua's warm lips.

Am I in a dream?

Cause if this is all a dream I am so Gay!

But if not Killua is so Gay!

He's still kissing me right now.
I can't breath but I don't want to part my lips with him.

I closed my eyes like it's okay if I can't breath. It's okay if I'd die.

But Killua slowly pulled himself back and looked at me with passionate eyes.

Is this Killua?
Why do he looks like a Prince?

Our eyes met. Chocolate eyes drowns in his Blue ocean eyes.

I can't say a word. I'm so confused.
My heart feels excited and scared and happy and I don't know. I want to run.
"Gon." I froze as soon as I hear Killua's voice. His voice sounded husky like.

I didn't say anything. I can't say anything. But I have to.

"Kil-" and then again Killua cuts me off.

"Gon this is the problem." He said with worried eyes. I stayed silent.

"You, you won't understand Gon. I- this is my fault. All of this. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I lied to you. I lied Gon." His voice cracked when he say my name. I felt guilty but what is he talking about?

The wind softly brushed our hair and the air suddenly feel moist. It's cold but Killua's eyes looking at me like this it's much colder it's like I'm in the middle of the Ocean. It's so beautiful.

I stayed silent. My body is trembling. He lied? I don't remember anything.

Killua suddenly held both of my hands and rested it on his toned chest.

"Feel that?" He said and I saw a small smile in his face.

"Your heart? I-it's beating so fast but what are you trying to say?" I asked. I'm afraid but I'm desperate. I want to know.

" Gon I know this is not right."

"What? What's not right?! " I asked impatiently.

"Gon just please let me finish!" Killua gave me a stern look. So I stayed still.

" Gon. This is not right I know. So please. Just please. Ughhh!! This is so hard to say! " Killua looked away. I'm still confused.

" Killua? "

The wind blew cold. My body felt chills but Killua seems to doesn't mind. I can see the desperation and worry in his eyes.

" Gon I love you. I want to be yours. I want to be your man. " Killua said it fast. I was surprised! Is this a confession? But we're both guys! His face suddenly became red as a tomato.

"I want to be your man." He repeated it again.

I stayed still, confused. He's starting to panic.

He started to panic.

(Killua's POV)

Geez why doesn't Gon say anything?

Sheez!

I felt cold sweat dripping under my neck.

Should I run away?

No. I've got to do this. I'm not a scaredy cat. I'm a man! I'm 17! Almost 18 in just a couple of months! I'm not scared of anything.

I slowly looked at Gon. Shit?

Why is he looking at me like that! He's not saying anything! I'm going crazy!

"Gon! " I snarled fast in his face.

He seemed startled.

Fine its do it now or never for me!

I let out a deep breath, closed my eyes and said.

"Gon I love you! I like you! More than friends! More than bestfriends! In you only I laugh! In you only I felt happiness! You're the only one who can make me feel so happy and you're the only one who can make me feel mad like crazy! I want to be with you always. I don't know but I know I love you! I love you Gon! I loved you always! Please! " my hot tears rolled so fast and Gon still hasn't say anything.

"If you still doesn't get it! It's love that wants to marry! Marry? You know? Two become one!" I snarled desperately.

The vibe is getting so tense. Im scared.
I dont feel any movement. My eyes are still closed I don't wanna look I dont wanna be hurt all over again. If Gon rejects me I swear! I won't know if I'll be alive.

The wind blew hard I felt my body swayed. It's cold. I can't breath. Im crying silently.

Gon's not saying anything.
His hands are still in my chest.

I feel very attacked right now.

Gon's probably having a disgusted face right now.

Gon hates me.

He hates me.

He'll leave me.

I felt my shirt under my neck getting wet from my tears. Pathetic!

I FUCKED UP!

I MESSED UP!