You are mine

chapter 25

Dedicated to Defne_khan.

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I kept looking in his eyes. Any sign on his face or maybe his movements that give away his serious facade.

Maybe it was just a rhetorical statement. You know the kind when your sibling is being so annoying that you have to retort back at everything they utter from their mouth not caring half the stuff they say might even be right.

I wait and wait.

His eyes don't waver. His posture bold. Strong.

I found no filters through it.

That's when I wavered back,"you kid me right?"

"Don't kid yourself." He deadpanned.

A wave of nausea hit me. Lately it's been too much for me. So much unexpected and energy draining.

But this!

Who could have thought.

Marrying him was the last thing on my mind right now.

And most importantly why would I marry-

I briefly glanced at him during the train of thoughts.

Why's he still looking at me as if- as if he expects an answer.

How was I supposed to answer him. What do you say to be something like this?

I never had a moment like this before neither was I friends with a bunch of gossip girls to be aware of how such situations go.

How do you refuse to someone like- him.

I wouldn't only if it wasn't for...

Okay enough! I need to stop my thoughts from steering in the direction of the possibilty.

I looked up at him and inhaled deeply. The kind which uplifted my slim shoulders in a bold way when in reality I was trying to grasp any bit of courage available out there to look him in the eyes,"There's just no way."

He made no move to approach me. surprisingly.

Which was good.

"I find a way for anything I set my mind on!" He replied all calm and in a laid back fashion.

But his words sent chills down my spine.

As if listening to an eagle unfold his witty side to you or let you peak at the corner of its mind where vicious plans lie.

"Look,you don't get it. Its just-" trying to find a way to put it out there was the hardest thing for me.

He sighed distracting me momentarily.

I stopped and looked at him taking thoughtful steps towards me. Once face to face, his eyes roamed all over my face as if trying to analyze the creativity there. Then his hands rested on either side of my head and patted the scarf that I knew had greasy hair underneath for not being able to take a shower for a long time.

Goodness I just wanted to get away from everyone and in that soft cocoon of my personal space.

His strong gaze carelessly wandered over the fabric of it. All over it. Leaving me fidgeting and super conscious.

Finally it landed back on my eyes and sucked my vision inside his own emptiness," what is it that keeps you all defensive and-" his gaze fell over my body, the fighting fingers and an alert posture,ready to get away, "-misbehaving?"

The underlying warning didn't go unnoticed.

But how come he wants me to be all "yes sir" when he's literally pushing something so important and cherishing on me like that.