Think Again (Camren)

Hope You've Enjoyed Your Stay

Camila's PoV

Graduation day should've been one of the happiest moments in my life. A step into the new world and shedding my teenage days behind me. Part of that was true. I was getting ready to go to Quebec for three months and though I looked forward to it, I no longer looked forward to a future beyond my hockey career.

I fiddled with my cap and gown as Sammy settled next to me in a seat. "How are your nerves?"

I shrugged. I didn't really have much to say.

I couldn't help but lean forward and catch the eyes of Lauren. I couldn't help but burst into tears when she looked away quickly.

Why was she pulling away? I knew she loved me. I knew she wanted to be with me. What was she so scared of?

"Mila," Sofi came up and squeezed between Sammy and I, "it's going to be okay."

"I," I hiccupped and shook my head, running out of the school yard and into the school. I couldn't very well go up, say a speech and accept my diploma when I was blotchy and watery eyed.

Damn Lauren Jauregui.

I heard the bathroom door open and quickly wiped my face before catching her reflection in the mirror. "Don't you even try and comfort me, Jauregui." I turned around and gave her a cold look.

"Camila," she pleaded.

"No!" I walked past her and wrenched the door open but she grabbed me and blocked the door. "Move." I ordered.

"Just listen to me." Lauren said, standing straight.

"You think I won't remove you myself?" I argued quietly, frowning. "I'm not afraid to touch you if it means moving you to get the hell away from me. You have no right to come in here and comfort me after breaking everything off!"

Her head hung slightly and she sighed heavily. My heart broke because at that moment all I wanted to do was comfort her even though I was the one hurting. But I got over the urge to do so. "I know I hurt you Camila and I'm sorry okay?"

"Unless you're here to tell me you've made a mistake and you want to try and work us out, I suggest you move, Lauren." I stepped forward again and she didn't budge. She didn't say a word. "Move." I whispered gravely.

Lauren chewed on her lip as tears spilled from her eyes, mirroring my own. I managed to move her by squeezing past her and running down the hall.

I found my seat again and Sammy squeezed my hand. I looked back at my parents and found Normani sitting with them, smiling at me. I smiled slightly and turned back to the Principal, who was about to call me on stage.

I made my way up, not even knowing how I was able to go up there without throwing up. Not because I was shy, but because I had to look every Graduate in the eye and I was scared I'd cave once my eyes hit those warm chocolate brown ones. But I tried to be strong. It was my day as well and I didn't want it to be any more painful then it already was.

I cleared my throat and slightly tapped on the microphone. "Good afternoon graduates, faculty, family and friends. Today is the day we've all been looking forward too. Some would say they looked forward to it because it would mean a sense of freedom. Others would look forward to it because it's a sense of a big accomplishment. I honestly think graduation is just the beginning of what's to come," I looked down at my paper that I had written out and then crumpled it and tossed it to the side, earning myself a few whispers and gasps before I continued my speech, "I think the words I've written down don't really apply at the moment," I quickly glanced at Lauren before finding other faces to distract me.