Unspoken words in proses.

Dum, spiro, spero (While I breathe, I hope)

I often hear the chaotic noises of people around me saying such thing as "You will not get in there." Sometimes, I also think that maybe they were right; perhaps I wouldn't make it. There are 'what ifs' that always comes through my mind whenever I pray in the church every sunny sunday.

But then, when I breathe and look around those people whom believes in me; I feel like there is nothing I couldn't do with their strength they lend me. Once again I step, I travel, I voyage. Though I know it will take so much struggles and battles to get there, but life gives me reason to fight; a reason to continue. It might been hard for me when I go through those dark days when I feel like I could never do anything but to cry in bed and bang my head. Yet I am still yearning for what tomorrow has for me; yearning for a good life.

It might take me hundreds of sleepless night to finally win this battle, but I am holding onto that little something that could might turn into a bigger one. 'Cause after all, it isn't about suffering rather about how you will face the obstacle that this universe has for you. Chaos is never permanent; battles has an ending. And life has a better meaning.