monster to majnu

chp 20

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Manik left Nandu in that worst weather and went away....he too was all drenched in rain...he went to his room..... removed his shoes and threw them away in different corners of the room...he was too exhausted by all day incident ..he just wanted to sleep but sleep was far away from his eyes...he went to washroom changed into comfortable tee and trousers....he wanted to distract himself from all this and whatelse could be better idea other than talking fab 5....he called cabir...no response.... then mukti..same ....he was frustrated and then he looked at time.....ohhhh shit man ....they must be sleeping at this time.....but i needed them i wanted someone to listen to me...to ensure me that everything would be fine....what should i do....he took his laptop to engage himself ...so that his mind stopped thinking of morning incident.... but that also not helped him....he was frustrated he went to bar area and started drinking vodka ....after drinking whole bottle of vodka he was still in his senses bcz drinking was not something new to him...he was used to it.... although the doctor asked him to stop drinking if he wanted to save himself ...but frankly speaking he never wanted to do this...what was special in his life.... nothing..no one beside him and the only thing he had was cursings of people ...he knew he couldn't commit suicide .... he didn't want people to say that he was coward....so this was the best option to kill himself.....none of his frnds knew about doctors warning

He then went to his room sat near the glass window..he looked outside and saw sky was full of black clouds and seemed like it was mid night but actually it was afternoon....it was raining too heavily that he couldn't even see through it......just like his life....he didn't had the slightest hint of what was coming next but he only knew one thing that the every new day was more challanging for him than the previous day.....now he stopped fanticizing a long time back that good days would come...his life was like a dark room... darkness everywhere...and the only ray of light was fab 5... may be he was living only bcz of them.Nandini....hahhh i always felt different around her..he knew what he had to go through while punishing her... guilt and then whenever he felt pity for her he punished her more..always trying to mask his emotions behind his anger..and then when she bandaged his hand it was enough...he couldn't do it anymore...he started behaving good with her... giving her space she needed..he was not good in expressing his emotions otherwise he would have told her that he liked her...he didn't remember he behaved that good with anyone else except fab 5...he was monster for world but only his frnds knew how much he craved for love...how much goodness he had inside him..he believed that if u show Ur vulnerable side to someone then he will definitely take advantage of it ..but then what she did in return....she did the same.... he only wanted her to console him at that moment....and then she could say anything to him later but not that time....he was tensed hurt angry it seemed that his cranial veins  would burst at any moment due to so much pressure....food yes food was the best tension reliever atleast for him....he went to kitchen and took some food for him...he was eating like he was hungry from ages...he always ate like this in stress....he was never a foody before but 3 years of starving was enough to make him foody......he stopped eating remembering past incident.....

Flashback before Raj's death

Manik came home from his hostel..... he first met Raj and then went to nyonika ....he hugged her tightly ...after sometime she broke the hug cupped his face ...

Nyo: haye Mera bacha....manik dekh kitna weak ho gya hai ... proper khana bhi nhi khata ho ga...

Manik looked at his dad making amazed face and found the similar expressions...

Raj: mjhe to theek lag rha hai

Nyo: app to chup hi rahe ...apne business ke ilawa ka much PTA hai nhi aise hi bolne lag parte