monster to majnu

chp 117

Life has stopped moving for nandini.....no matter how much she tried she was unable to get herself out of that depression zone where everything happened to manik bcz of her......bcz he wanted to protect her he sacrificed himself......she used to recall how the man who didnt even say sorry for the meanest things he did to someone was literally begging infront of his biggest enemy down on his knees for Nandini's life....how she used to hate herself for showing hatred to him at that time..........all that was more than enough to make her feel guilty.....she stopped taking care of herself.....she reduced her intake and whatever she was taking was also being vomited out bcz of her pregnancy and additional stress she was taking........she even stopped paying visit to him cuz according to her she was nothing but a danger to his life....everyone tried to make her understand that things weren't like that but no one could convince her.....she was sitting in her room with her legs folded and arms hugging them securing them closer to her chest as she laid her chin on one knee.....the door opened and revealed nyonika coming holding a tray of food.....nyonika was the one taking care of her food....trying to make her eat small portions time to time and if she wasnt succeeding at it , it wasnt other way round too........
Nandini raised her head and nyonika could see she was tired from battling too many battles all alone along with pregnancy which was surely messing up her mood......she felt pity on her....it was supposed to be the most precious moments of her life which had nothing but uncertainty now

Nandini try to come out of room...talk to everyone....they all come for u and u dont say a word she said as all her frnds had made a habit of visiting her trying to get her to say sth ,cheer her up...it used to help her for those moments but she used to go back to same struggling phase when she was left alone

Dil nhi karta she said the same single sentence which they all had been hearing since the day 1...nyonika rubbed her hand in affection and nandini looked at her....nyonika tugged her hair strand which was already in its perfect place and looked around encouraging herself to start a conversation while nandini all the time kept staring at her

I waited 15 years for this time to come when I will be free from harsh she started and nandini just didnt find one logical reason of why she would start this conversation.....did nyonika want sympathies??? But instead of voicing it out nandini decided to listen anyways

I fanticised mine and manik's normal relationship in these 15 years.......whenever I broke down the only thing that kept me going was the thought that some day I would be in this house enjoying with my only son she said and her face depicted pain.....nandini who was planning to let it skip and pay no heed to her words averted her attention to nyonika and listened to her carefully..... she could see pain in her words too

But see what happened......my son he is fighting for his life her voice shivered as tears rolled down her eyes

Nandini u have everyone beside u.....ur father, ur frnds and even urs and manik's baby.....I have no one.....the only person I was wishing to be with me is on life support...... if m dragging myself then how can u loose ur hope

It is ur hope she placed hand on Nandini's belly.... how can u give up so early on him she said with teary eyes and nandini just stared at the lady infront of her who had so much pain stored inside her