monster to majnu

chp 55

Few hours before

Arya came to nandini's room and closed the door with thud.shouting

Ar: wth nandini why didn't u tell.me that manik.is the one.....(pissed off)

N: Kia btati tmhe ke kon hai wo......(she retorted)......woh jis ki waja se mein aaj yahan hn....ya wo jis ne mere baap ko maar dala.......(her voice choked) ya wo jo mere phle mohabbat tha (lost)

Arya looked at her shocked unable to believe what he just heard.......she was stating about her luv ..... what does it mean do she still luv him.....

Ar: nandini yaar Idk what to say.......but u know naa I will support u in every decision whatever it is (placing his hand on her)

N: I know arya......thats why I share my everything with u

Ar: how do u feel being here.......seeing manik after so many years (he wanted to break manik's bones but still he was asking about her feelings bcz all he wanted was her happiness only)

N: Idk i literally don't know how the hell m feeling (irritated)...... at one moment i just wanna kill him but u know what even after all this we ate together last night....he cooked food for me and I kind of enjoyed it (little hesitance in her voice as she was thinking about arya that what would he feel about her after listening all this)

Ar: hmmmm (pressing her hand as in a gesture that he was listening her )

N: Idk I shouldn't feel like this but I felt bad when Abhi punched him misbehaved with him (she was now irritated bcz of the things happening......her heart..... it wasn't in her control which was making her frustrated....she had tears in her eyes)

Ar: it's okay relax nandu sb theek hojaye ga (hugging her)

After she composed herself he thought to give her a reality check

Ar: ummmm nandini I don't want more sufferings in ur life but I think that u still have feelings for him (in a serious tone)

Her face went pale at the revelation but then she said

N: arya I wanna sleep.....niklo mere room se (pushing him lightly avoiding their eye contact)

And then they were standing at the door...nandini still pushing him while he was cracking jokes to lighten her mood.......thats when manik saw them and misunderstood it

Other side

Manik was standing there hitting his foot with wall while blinking his tears time to time to stop tears from coming out.......after few minutes he went towards kitchen and grabbed bottles of alcohol......he was passing by the corridor when he saw his image on the mirror.......dishelved hair....eyes red showing his inner turmoil and water glittering at the corner of his eyes.......he sighed and went away ignoring it..well after all it wasn't new to him.........he opened the door of his room by kicking it with his foot and went towards the balcony while drinking the alcohol......he was drinking bottle one after the other but his pain was still there.....he wasn't able to forget that scene......laughing nandini and arya.......punching arya on his stomach...........he closed his eyes in pain

Ayee khuda kab tak....kab tak ye sab chale ga....kb tak mjhe apne gunaho ki saza is trah mile ge.......kab tak mjhe ye sab bear karna pare ga......thakk (tired) gya hn mein......nhi sehna (bear) hota ab....... ghalti to ho hi jati hai insaan se......bhool gya tha ke mein insaan hn khuda nhi......zaalim (cruel) bn gya tha.....(tears rolled down his eyes making her cheeks wet)..... lekin ab mjhe ehsaas hogya hai but ab tak mere zindagi wese hi hai....logo ka behaviour wese hi hai.....nandini move on kar chuki hai......she doesn't luv me....she moved on so easily.....itni bari Saza mile ge ab mjhe.....mein jis ko chahta hn whi Mjhe chor ke chala jata.....kyon kyon God kyon