Eternal love, Princess of Ashes ( Alec Volturi love story)

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My soul is as cold as the northern blizzard
But my anger is as burning hot as the depths of
Hell

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I fucking hate doctors.

     
IT was more of what it smelled like. In every hospice,home clinic or medical tent it all smelled the same. The smell was a mixture of a nose bleeding bleach stench and a unknown smell that only a hospital could hold. It all send shivers and bad memories down my spine.
     Carlisle's cold hands touched my jaw gently tilting it slightly as I sat rigid in the examination chair. His stone fingers skimmed over the small crack that ran over my jaw and cheek slightly. " It's healing normally it seems." He tells me letting go of my face and stepping back and writing something on his clipboard.    
"Other then the slight discomfort you should be fine..." The silence echoes loudly in the room and I swing my legs that dangled over the edge.
    "Do you know who it is?" I know what he means but the words are trapped in my throat as I struggle to answer him properly. " No." I finally breath out after a minute looking up slightly and leaning forward resting my elbows on my thighs.
    . " Have they hurt you?" He sits himself in the rolling chair that sat beside the chair looking at me intently. I shut my eyes briefly thinking back to the twins in London and how they so easily ripped me apart emotionally. " It's none of your concern." I shake my head bitterly tucking a fallen strand of hair out of my face as I look off into the distance.
    " Anastasia." His voice is firm and authoritative and I snap my head to him glaring at him in warningly. " You may not see yourself as my child but I will forever call you my daughter . Please to ease a worried fathers mind. Have they hurt you?" His eyes are dark and weary the lines on his face are deep showing his true emotions. The Volturi side of me wants to sneer at his vulnerability but the Cullen side of me wants to reach out and hug him to reassure him that I would be fine as long as they were safe.
    Looking away I train my eyes on the forest around us watching as the nature interacts with each other. " No.." I finally whisper the lie he needs to hear to keep his sanity for when I leave.
When I leave. I feared and welcomed the day as it would mean I could go back home and live the life I had adapted to so easily. It would also me I would leave the Cullen's unprotected and vulnerable to the monsters that wanted me dead. " Don't lie to me please." He whispers lowly and I hang my head slightly shaking it. " Carlisle. My life isn't as easy as it was when I lived in the dark. Now that doesn't mean I would trade my life now for the world it just means..." I trial off not sure how to continue the sentence as I grasp at the words that are stuck in my throat. " I'm stronger now both in gift and in mind." I smirk slightly hopping off the chair and steadying myself with my hand firmly grasping on the edge the seat behind me.
     The mental pain and exhaustion is something Carlisle couldn't fix and I wouldn't bring it up to him as he would just throw me into a brain cat scan to see if I had done any damage to it. Which is 100% unlikely. " Meditate." He calls after me as I stumble slightly to the door. " What?" My step falters slightly and I look at him over my shoulder watching as he flips through my charts.
    " You were hiding your dizziness and that tree episode you pulled can't be easy on your gift or mind. Take some time to meditate.Doctors orders." My lips twitch slightly a smile trying to break free onto my lips but I hold it back. " Aye aye captain." I joke and then bite my tongue slightly ' really " Aye aye captain?!" What are you 12?!' As I scold myself Carlisle looks up and smiles at me lifting two fingers up and bringing it to his forehead. The movement is simple but I can't help laugh quietly before walking out of the room shutting the oak wood door behind me and leaning against slightly.
     With my walls dropped slightly the wave of of pain crashes down on me almost bringing me to my knees. Before I can stumble down onto the floor hands wrap around my waist and hold me up. " Im fine" I whisper wincing slightly as another wave slams into me.
    " Don't even try to lie to me." Alec stands in front of me his voice is quite and stern and I know I'm in trouble. " On a scale of 1-5 how much am I in trouble?" I chuckle quietly lifting up a hand to grip the side of my head as it feels like the world is spinning. " 10." He states simply bending down to pick me up bridal style but the last thing I want is the Cullen's seeing me at my weakest.
     Gently pushing him away I move forward forcing my legs not to wobble and my back to straighten " I'm fine love." I whisper again as he wraps his arm around my waist making me lean on him as we walk out of the hall and towards the glass stairs. My sock covered feet make small thuds each slow step we take and I almost feel bad for not begin fast enough but every time I try to speed up Alec holds me steady.
    " And the princesses is alive." I clench the hand that was holding Alec's hand tightly and try not to lung forward at the idiot that sat on the couch with a tense Emmett and jasper. " I'll kick your ass again Knight." I hiss and I feel Alec tense probably holding himself back from attacking my mutt brother. Hurt flashes in his eyes and I raise a eyebrow. What happened to the teeth barring brother that wanted to tear me apart? He sighs and shakes his head before standing up causing the three other Volturi guards to tense.
     " Can we talk?" He whispers and it takes everything in me not to scoff. He wanted to fucking talk?! After he basically threatened my life?! He's lucky he's even standing right now. Jane and Alec would have already ripped him apart if he wasn't my family. Hell I want to rip into him even though I know he's my blood!! But something in his steal colored eyes has me caving just like in our childhood.
     " No" "Fine" Me and Alec say at the same time and his grip on my waist tightens as he hears my answer. ' I'll be fine.' I look Alec in the eyes and he glares down at me not in a threatening manner but a pissed off one. ' I'm not letting you talk to him alone. Either I come or you don't go at all.' Sighing through my nose I look you at Andrew to see him glaring harshly at Alec ' Fine. Guess your coming.' I don't have the energy to argue or to fight anymore. " Family meeting with the in-laws...super.." Andrew grumbles leading the way towards the back patio. This should be interesting.