Heaven in Hell

MISSION- II

PRESCOTT's POV:

The guilt and the shame kept me up all night knowing that my team will put themselves in danger without me. This better go exactly as planned or else...! I'm not going to lose a single of these monkeys. No way!

If I could workout, I could have slept. Heck, I could have joined them. But here I am. Tossing and turning around, in hopes that I can quiet the riot in my mind and sleep.

I have never been a nervous wreck. Sleep has always come so easily to me- no matter what I know about the next day. But today, even she decides to punish me. Great! Going on the mission would have been much calming! 

I give up my efforts and go up to the third floor to re-check satellite imagery and go over my plan again. I don't want them walking in a trap.

Hours later, I hear the faint sound of Roshesh's alarm and I go back down. I know there is nothing here to check but I still did and the thought disgusts me.

I take Roshesh outside. "If things don't go as planned?"

"We abort, sir" Good. He better remember this. I don't want him to try and complete the mission at any cost.

"If you think there is danger, if your gut warns you, you BETTER listen to it. You abort the mission. The team comes first. Am I clear?"

"Yes, sir"

"No deviations from the plan. You run like hell and be back here safe"

"Yes, sir. We won't disappoint" This stupid word 'disappointment'! Dammit!

There is not a single way to disappoint. We failing this mission - yes "we"- is not the only way. Any of them getting injured, playing hero or stupid will also disappoint me. Fuck! I actually care for these idiots. God save my soul!

Dismissing him, I go and ready the gear and equipment to load into the vehicle. I need to do something before I give in to the guilt and beg Chief to let me go with my team. Besides, I need to ensure that the idiots get the working gear.

Chief walks in while I'm carrying the bags and I know I'm in so much shit I cringe and hold my breath.

"Are you sure there is something between those two ears?"

I look down knowing there is no answer here. I know I should care well. I know.

He just sighs, "Keep them in before your heart doubles its rate" I scurry out before he kills me.