Lightning

Chapter XXXIII

.Age 19. Part 6.

After telling Sawyer my sob story. We began talking about us. We were a couple now, This is the first real relationship I've been in since Dans passing and I was a mix of emotions. I was scared, I didn't want to Fuck this up. People around me tend to get hurt and I have bad luck wherever I go and don't want to pull Sawyer into that. 

We sat in my truck just talking for the next few hours. He was telling me about his life. He grew up in Lapeer, He graduated in 2010, He went to culinary school but had to quit because of financial problems. Then he worked at a bar for four years and recently got hired at a Smokehouse up in Almont. About an hour away from me. He was very close with his parents, especially his father. While sitting in the car talking he looked at me and said.

"Alright, I need to tell you something."

"Oh god. Already?" I said disappointed. 

"What?" He asked.

"Bad news already and we haven't been dating that long." I chuckle.

He laughs along with me before he explains.

"No, see there is this guy that I have been seeing, but ever since I met you I have been kinda ignoring him. My intention wasn't to lead him on but I think he thinks there is more between us. So, before you and I can be 'Official' I should probably call him and let him know it's not going to happen." 

Wow. Most men nowadays won't give you a text, let alone a phone call to let you know they're not interested. Sawyer is the One. I felt it that night and have felt it ever since.

He got out of the car to call the poor boy and I stayed to smoke a cigarette. While Sawyer was on the phone I texted Haven and told her what had happened. 

Our conversation fell short when Sawyer opened the car door and told me 'It was done.'

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to come between you two." I said getting out of the car to hug him.

"There was nothing to come between. I don't like him like that."

"What about me?" I asked staring at him.

"You? You're alright." He said giving me a smile and a kiss on the lips.

"It's getting late, I should probably go." He said letting go of me.

"Or..." I said pulling him back in.

"You could stay, Haven won't be home till tomorrow and you don't work tomorrow." I said.

"True, But what would we do? It's already 2am."

"I think we can come up with something."

We both walk back into the house and lock the door. Oerba greets us and runs to her spot on the light tan couch. Sawyer and I shut off all the lights in the house and move into my bedroom. Out of habit I shut the door and turn the T.V on. Revolution started playing and we had kept it on for background noise. When I turned around Sawyer had pulled me into his arms and began kissing me. Our bodies were glued together, it felt like nothing could rip us apart. My bed had broke so I had 2 mattresses on the floor acting as my bed. Sawyer had removed my shirt and without thinking I palmed him through his pants, I haven't done this in so long will I even be able to?

Soon all clothing was removed and we began making out on the bed. Our bodies never leaving one another, I haven't felt this kind of connection in my life, What was it about him? From the moment I met him I had butterflies. Sawyer had broken the kiss and asked if I had lube. My dumbass forgot to buy some, I don't know why, I was looking right at it the other day but decided not to. 

"No, I don't have condoms either. I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry babe. I can't wear condoms anyway."

"Why?" I asked looking confused.

He then grabbed my hand and lowered it onto him under the thin blanket covering us.

Oh.

I had felt it before on the night that we first met but didn't take into account the size. 

Even when the times comes will I be able to? Dan was nothing compared to him. In every way. Personality is completely different. And I'm glad.

"Next time?" He asked.

"For sure." I said. I began looking around the dimmed room for my clothing.

"What are you doing?" He asked sitting up, Exposing himself.

"Looking for my clothes." I say trying not to look.

"Why?" he asked standing from the low bed.

"Well, I mean, we can't...ya know so I figured we were done." I said looking him in the eyes now.

He had gotten up from the bad and met me face to face.

"We still can do other stuff. We weren't done."

The way he said that made me drop to my knees. I've never had anyone, let alone a man command me the way he did, Now let me make one thing clear. He was not controlling me. He is not like that outside the bedroom. But while we are in the bedroom. I'll do whatever he tells me.

For the next 2 hours, we were fooling around. I had never felt like this. As he was grinding against me I wanted to so bad shout 'I love you' but I know it was still way to soon. I fell in love with Dan quickly and I wanted to take my time with Sawyer. I could see this going somewhere, somewhere good. My life finally seems to be turning around. I have a house, a car, a job, and now a man. I can finally be me. After almost 20 years of hiding myself I can finally show it off. One problem though. Sawyer was still in the closet.