Don't Speak (SBI Angst)

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Tommy pov:

He walked away, what the fuck.

I know the basis of what happened to him, Phil told me what the social worker had told him because once I accidentally triggered techno somehow, I don't even remember how.

The list was simple, like mine mostly.

1. Physical abuse
2. Mental Abuse
3. Guardians with drug abuse
4. Guardians with alcohol abuse

And the regular gist of things.

And this was all told to me at like 9, and there were a few things he didn't tell me, that 'he'd tell me later' he said I was too young

Bullshit

I sat in silence as tears stained my face.

I'm gonna check if dad's back in his room, I need to cut.

I sneak down the stairs, and see dad putting something into his pocket.

Probably whatever techno had.

"Dad"

He looks up

"Oh- Toms go to sleep, do you need something?"

"What did he have?"

He sighed

"Nothing too bad, don't worry about it."

"What are you gonna do with it?"

"Um- probably just hide it somewhere- Tommy why are you asking?"

I don't know why I asked that actually.

"I don't want him getting it back."

"He won't. Just go back up in your room."

I sighed and went back upstairs, but before I went into my room I got caught in thought

I don't want to cut.

I can't.

I promised

If I break the promise I'm no better than techno.

I don't want to tell Phil I feel like cutting, I don't like worrying him.

I don't want Wilbur right now,  I'm mad at him too, why would he go with techno???

I can't go in technos room either, I just yelled at him.

"Fuck it" I whispered to myself, before entering my room

Techno POV:

I sat by my  door, listening as Tommy asked dad about me.

I wish I could answer his questions myself.

You're too fucking closed off, why would he even ask you?

Voices.

"Fuck it" I hear quietly

The voices have never taken Tommy's voice before, that's new.

As much as I want to terrorize you with his voice, I can't.

Was that actually Tommy?

I don't think as I grab my door handle and start to go to his room, and the second I get to his room,

He doesn't want to see you.

Right.

I hear a sob escape him, god.

Did I make him cry like that?

Of course you did, all you do is hurt him, he should have been the only one adopted, not you.