Jordan
"Thank you mom."
I say softly, sitting down in front of her."I mean it, you can talk to me about anything."
She says, smiling warmly.I rest my elbows on the table.
It's past midnight and I had a nightmare so I came down for a glass of milk.
Brook went to bed a few minutes ago, after spending majority of the evening in Gabby's room.
Which it too bad because if she would have been in my arms then I wouldn't have had the nightmare.
Mom was sitting at the table drinking some coffee.
"I had a nightmare."
I whisper, not trusting my voice.It was so horrible.
The worst one I've had in a long time.
The thing is, I want to tell someone about it, which I really weird.
I usually don't like to talk about my horrible dreams.
But mom looks like a good listener.
She's the caring type.
"Go on child. Tell mom what happened."
She coax and I find myself 'spilling the tea' (as Gabby calls it).It was so horrible.
It was like a rerun of that night...the night of the fire.
Except my baby girl was there.
She.......I saw her burn instead of my mum, I was so terrified.
She kept on calling for me to save her but I couldn't.
You know...the regular nightmares where you try to move but your feet are stuck in place. I hate those.
Her hair turned to ashes.
Her beautiful eyes turned lifeless.
The flames killed the only light of my life.
I don't even know I'm crying until mom offers me a box of Kleenex.
I take a few tissues, blowing my nose.
"God. It scared the crap out of me."
I sniffle, wiping my eyes with the back of my hand.She stares at me silently.
"I'm so sorry, Jordan. That seems like the worst."
She says, patting my shoulder motherly.I sniffle again, smiling wobbly.
"Yeah."
"Do you tell her about your nightmares?"
I shake my head.
"No. I don't want her to worry. She's the best thing that's happened to me in a long time."
I say quietly, staring down at the table top.When I look up again, Mom seems surprised by my comment.
"Really?"
I take a deep breath.
"Yes. I wasn't always the most....open person. People would just come and go, trying. Everybody gave up, I was just about to give up on myself when she came along. She's changed me so much and it's really hard to just imagine her being hurt in any way. I don't think I'd be able to live if something happened to her."
Mom just stares.
That's when I open my mouth and tell her the one thing that scares me the most.
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