dive into you | jongsang (✓)

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kang
are you busy?

jh
no, what's up?

kang
i've been having a
really bad weekend

jh
i'm so sorry :(
wanna talk about it??

kang
is that okay?

jh
of course it is

i'm here for you,
remember?

kang
thank you

okay so it kind of all started
yesterday after we stopped
texting in the morning. my
best friend saw me smiling
at my phone and it startled
me, i asked him how he got
in and he told me my mom
let me in and was overjoyed
to see him... i just don't
understand how he's always
able to make her feel better
but her own son can't ://

it just makes me feel so bad
about myself and i know
that's not her intention or
woo's but it hurts so bad

jh
why didn't you text
sooner?? :(

i'm sorry you've been
hurting, kang :((

kang
its okay, i didn't want
to bother you

sometimes i just really hate
being the way i am... i want
to be able to talk to everyone
i meet and i've never been
able to and it sucks so bad

i feel like that's the
reason everyone leaves me
and i just don't know what to
do about it at this point.
i've been going to therapy
for basically my whole life
and nothing's changed

jh
people don't leave you
because you have trouble
talking, i'm sure of that.
i'm so sorry that things are
so hard for you, though.
i know i don't need to be, but
you only deserve happiness.

kang
do you think that maybe
my dad left because of
me? he always got frustrated
that i have a stutter most
of the time and that i couldn't
talk to new people :/

jh
i don't think so

i think he just had a
different idea of the
relationships he wanted.

that or he was just a
cheating asshole

kang
idk

it just feels like maybe all
of this is my fault ://

jh
kang :( don't think like
that. you're an incredible
person, and i'm sure you're
just overthinking things.

kang
i cant do this

jh
hey.. what's wrong??

kang, i'm here. u can tell
me absolutely anything,
i promise that i'll listen.

kang
i'm so sorry that you have
to deal with me... i'm so
annoying :/

jh
don't say that

you're not annoying

kang, take a deep
breath, okay?

kang
i'm trying