My chapters are becoming a lot longer so i hope you guys don't mind that :))
also, this chapter is a bit of a rollercoaster but not too crazy.Harry and I were slowly doing better. He still had lunch with me and I was slowly getting better I think. I was a lot more exhausted lately and worried how he was feeling which isn't normal for me and why I tend to be alone. Worrying about my own brain and now worrying about Harry, it was lot when I was in my cycle. I know we had already talked about this but I still worried he was holding back.
I wanted to do something for him though. Taking a shower would be a good start, it had been a few days and my hair was starting to smell. I had approximately an hour until he would be at his place so I decided to take a full shower, wash my hair, shave my legs and such, and put on clean clothes. I even did a load of laundry because he has been doing mine every few days and I didn't want him to worry about that when he got here.
I appreciate him taking care of me so much but I was worried it was becoming too much and I was being a burden.
It's because you are a burden, he's probably so tired of your shit.
I even lit a few candles. I had absolutely no energy to cook but I was a lot more hungry today so I decided I'd let him decide what he wanted to eat and we could even go out if he wanted.
I was really pushing myself today, it wasn't necessarily a bad day but I was tired. I think this cycle maybe be shorter because I'm already feeling more like myself lately.
Sometimes it was hard to believe that Harry and I have been dating around 3 and a half months now and most of that time was me spent dealing with my depression. He was honestly a trooper for sticking with me through all my bad days. I mean he stayed after I told him everything. I always anticipated the moment I'd finally open up to someone and they'd affirm that I was an awful person. Harry was angry at my family, he voiced that to me and I could see it in his eyes. He was so angry that they made me hate myself.
I didn't even feel angry because it was true, I didn't like myself and I didn't think anyone else could either.
But Harry did.
But does he really?
Harry says he likes me and he cares for me. I really like and care for him. My feelings were becoming stronger though, I felt like I'd do anything for Harry. I wanted to do anything for him. I wanted to make him smile and make him laugh. I wanted to make him feel safe and comforted. I just knew that I had strong feelings that consumed every part of me. I didn't really know why I was feeling such intense emotions.
Gemma and I talked for the first time in weeks and when I mentioned these emotions to her she said it could possibly be love. I laughed her off. But the more I think about it the more she may be right. I feel so connected to Harry and I kind of think I could be falling in love him. Talking about my feelings with Gemma is surprisingly a lot easier despite her being Harry's sister. But, I didn't know what love was. It was one emotion I'd never experienced in a romantic sense.
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Peace [HS AU]
Fanfic"It just doesn't make sense to me," she mumbled wrapping her arms around me tighter and trying to stop the tears that wanted to spill from her eyes. "What?" "That you could fall in love with me." • Camryn Summers tends to stick to herself. She move...