I don't know what happened. When we had lunch I knew she was having a bad day. She was reserved more than usual so when I went back to work I asked my boss if I could leave early. I just got a bad feeling about today. She didn't make eye contact and she didn't speak.
She usually smiles even if it's fake or gives me a kiss or small words. Today she was radio silent.
Thank god I came back early. When I walked up to her apartment I heard her crying and muttering words. I didn't even knock. My heart sunk when I walked to where I heard her crying and she was sitting on her bathroom floor.
When I saw the knife my heart stopped. I didn't know if she was just going to cut herself or actually try to kill herself. I never moved so fast to kneel beside her and grab the knife. She didn't even notice me at first.
I saw almost a fully drunken bottle of vodka and then she finished it before I brought her to bed.
She didn't want me anymore because she thought she would hurt me.
"I'm no good for you, Harry. There's too much that I've done. I hurt the people I care about and it would kill me if I hurt you too, you should leave now before you care anymore about me. Leave now and save yourself from all the hurt I know I'll cause," I mumbled as I felt his hand attach to mine. "I hurt the people I care about," I repeated not remembering I already said that. "I care too much about you."
I didn't know what she meant. Was this just her mind making her think she didn't deserve someone to care about her?
I know she has a past and there's a reason she moved countries. She never told me though, it was obviously a hard topic and I never pressured her to tell me.
I know she asked me to leave but I couldn't. I put her to bed and watched her sleep for a while. I checked every now and then to make sure she was breathing. She drank so much in so much little time I was worried about how her body would react.
I just sat on the couch and left her bedroom door open so I could hear her if she woke up. I know she'll probably be upset that I'm still here when she wakes up but I can't just leave.
She was so distraught.
This whole situation was bringing up painful memories for myself and my past. Something I had never told anyone before.
I care so much about Camryn. Seeing how she was today made me wonder how her past depressive episodes have been.
I had so many questions and I know it's not my place to ask but what do I do? This is such a personal situation so I can't just call David or Gemma for advice. I didn't want to overstep but what do I do?
We obviously need to have some sort of conversation when she wakes up.
Fuck, I'm so worried.
I held my head in my hands as I cried silently. The girl who somehow seemed to capture my attention and become my girlfriend in the span of a month was hurting so deeply and I just wanted to be here for her but I don't know what she wants. Now, after almost three months she had taken over a bigger section of my heart.
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Peace [HS AU]
Фанфик"It just doesn't make sense to me," she mumbled wrapping her arms around me tighter and trying to stop the tears that wanted to spill from her eyes. "What?" "That you could fall in love with me." • Camryn Summers tends to stick to herself. She move...