𝐃𝐀𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐒━︎━︎ J. Hale ✓︎

𝐓𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲-𝐅𝐢𝐯𝐞

CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE:
OCTOBER

October 17th

"HEY, JAZZ. I DON'T even know why I'm still doing this. It's been a month since you've left. I should be getting over you. I'm trying, I really am. But it hurts. God, Jasper, it hurts so fucking much. How could you do that? Send Rosalie to tell me the news instead of yourself? I try Jasper. I try so hard for so many people that don't give two shits about me. Is it so hard for someone to care about me? Am I that bad of a person?

I usually don't say this stuff out loud, but I know you won't hear these messages. You don't care about me anymore. That's okay. I'm used to it. Don't feel bad. Really. Just give me half a year and then I'll be okay. I'm always going to be okay."

October 23rd

"You know, I forgot what it feels like to have emotions. I feel so numb. You gave me life, Jasper. And I know, that sounds insane. How could a vampire that's dead give someone who's already alive life. The answer: You made me happy again. Before I met you Jasper, I was so depressed. My family had just died in that car accident that just so happened to be on my birthday.

You know, now that I think about it, I'm the reason for all the bad things that happen in my life. First, I get my parents and little sister killed in a car accident. Next, my aunt kicks me out because I'm too depressed and look too much like my mother. And now, I've run you out of town. Jesus. Maybe it would be better if I weren't here. Bella isn't talking to me. Neither is anyone else.

No one is concerned about my sanity. Only Bella's. That's okay. I'm glad Bella has people that care for her. I thought I had someone, but that's gone now. It's alright. Everything's going to be okay. Right?"

October 27th

"It's happening again. My episodes are starting to come back. I swear, I've been taking my medication. But, I think the real reason they stopped was because you were always there. I had reassurance that everything was going to be okay. That hope is starting to dwindle. But, like I said. I'm always going to be okay. I'm not allowed to not be okay.

God. . . it just. . . it hurts. It hurts so much. I miss you, and I know I shouldn't. I'm mad at you, but I still miss you. Just, check in once awhile. Or just once. And tell me you're okay. . . please? "

October 31st

"I've always hated Halloween. Honestly. So much candy, so much people. Children knocking from door to door. It's quite dangerous if you ask me. Nowadays little children can get kidnapped quicker than you can blink. I don't think I'd ever have children for that sole purpose. I care too much. My child would probably hate me anyways. I would be an awful mother. So strict and everything." Luna chuckled lightly, wiping away the stray tear before continuing.

"Anyways, I should probably sleep. I haven't done that in awhile. So, goodnight Jasper. Until next time."

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Authors note: I'm sOBBING. I really just wanna skip through the part where Jasper comes back, but like I can't cause something important is gonna happen and I just- ahhh I wanna cry.

I hope you all enjoyed! Stay safe! Until next time, bye loves!♥️

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