Raising Peter (Sequel to Opposites Attract- Stony/Superfamily/Spideypool Fanfiction)

author's note.. good &bad.. ?

alright, hi guys!

so I have both good and bad news :-) , except the bad news is kinda personal and I'm even debating if I should talk about it but I love you all enough and feel like you are all my bffs so wth lol

okay so um.. good news first!!

the good news is, is that all my family is gone! (somewhat relieved to have it all peaceful again! lol but sadly the family reunion is in a week so I'll be seeing them all again xD) SO, I can get to writing the fanfics and updating! yyeeeeee!!! 

but yeah, I'm gonna work on a chapter update after I publish this so that's good right :)

ok.. so now.. the bad news (you can skip if you want, just need to get this off my chest)

okay this is really personal and I don't feel comfortable saying it but I really have to just tell someone. We all need at least someone to tell their problems to right?

okay so ive been dealing with this for a really really long time it's really getting to me like im lashing out at all my friends (basically only have one irl friend now & im even pushing her away) but im finally admitting to it that i have a problem

i have a mental health issue and it's a mix of both anorexia and bulimia.

ok, since i said that... i feel really weird right now because I've never really talked about this with anyone so just bear with me i guess? idk where I'm going with this

ever since around february this year I've gotten really concerned about my weight and I started to skip meals which started working but then after losing the first 10 pounds in around a month I started eating more and everytime I ate I would get SO guilty it's not even funny

after that... it's not hard to guess what I did but yeah, after some eating I would throw it up

now it's 6 months later and i haven't gained or lost any since losing the 10 and it's gotten so much worse I have completely started to shut down.

i get depressed all the time and I lash out at my best friend who tries to help. My life is actually controlled by food. Every moment of my time is spent by thinking about my calorie intake or something like that

im 5'5 and weigh 130 lbs so I understand that the BMI for that is average or whatever but nothing is helping me to see that

im not telling all of you this because i want attention, i hope you know that. i hate that. im also not telling you because I want all of you to feel bad or pity me. I'm telling you only because I just really needed to get it off my chest where I know people read/listen

My parents dont know (AND CAN NEVER FIND OUT) and so that is why i don't go to therapy for it either. i just don't know where else to go but i know i can always count on all of you and that you guys always put smiles on my face

but yeah, i just had to let you know, there will probably be updates where i seem really depressed or something but that's only because life is making things really tough for me right now

so anyway, just had to get that off my chest :) thanks for reading if you did, you don't even know how much it means to me, honestli :-)

hopefully new update within the next couple days :)

bye for now.. sorry if im leaving this on a somewhat awkward note lol...

(no hate please)