Behind My Eyes.

alone.

i think i'm getting better at being by myself.

i really am!

at least that's what i tell myself when the room grows dark and the only one left dancing is me.

i figure if i tell myself that enough times then i'll start to believe it.

that's how it works right?

sunday was hard,

i didn't even realize the toll it took on me until everyone left and it was me alone in the room.

other than that i think i'm fine?

maybe i'm a bit lonely.

it doesn't help that he lives so far away although maybe that's for the best.

they can't see how clingy and annoying i really am.

i think i need to sit down and talk to myself.

i need to figure out why i hate being alone so much.

i think it has to do with the abandonment issues i've had all my life. 

i need constant reassurance that they won't leave me and i need to have someone with me all the time.

everyone leaves me in the end,

i'd leave me too.