Behind My Eyes.

panic!

it's almost five in the morning and i think i'm losing my mind!

i shouldn't feel like this.

should i?

am i crazy?

is this normal?

am i overreacting?

i need to breathe.

i need to calm down.

what is going on with me?

i need to not be amber for a moment.

i need to step out of my life and think.

i need to not be me.

i'm overwhelmed.

i can't do that though.

i can't just step outside of myself.

i can't just pause everything and take a moment.

life keeps going regardless of how bad you're spiraling.

it's one great big smack in the face, 

"oh you need to calm down and sit? sike, get the hell up it's time to work."

trying to work through this is damn near impossible.

how am i meant to function?

my brain turns to mush.

the only thoughts i have are bad.

i think my body is trying to kill me.

i think my brain is trying to kill me.

i'm my own worst enemy.