Behind My Eyes.

new years with you.

sometimes i wish it were new years again.

everything was so simple at the beginning of this year.

you came down to see me and spend new years with me.

you stopped by my job and you met the people in my life and that made my heart soar.

i've never had a guy want to meet my friends and the people close to me,

made me happy.

while we were watching a movie you phone kept going off and i asked you about it because i was trying to enjoy the masterpiece that is Prisoner of Azkaban.

you told me it was your friends asking you to come over to a party.

i told you that you should go, 

it'd been a while since you saw them and who am i to hold you from your friends?

you were shocked that i let you go.

you told me that your ex never would've let you go.

i told you that i'm not your ex and as long as i got to see you the next day before i went to work i wouldn't care.

i had one request though.

i wanted my new years kiss before you left.

"kiss me like you mean it", is something that i always said to you.

it was our thing.

i grabbed you by the front of your shirt and kissed you and then sent you off to meet your friends.

told you to text me when you got there but you called me while you drove because you knew i'd miss you.

and i did.

as soon as you left i missed you.

i texted you all night but i still let you have fun.

you showed up the next morning around eight-thirty.

i woke up sick as a dog.

i was shaking but i also felt like i was on fire.

you got into bed with me and made me feel loved even if i looked like death.

i was a sweating mess but you didn't complain at all.

you just laid there and held me as i drifted in and out of sleep.

you fell asleep again eventually and when we woke up we watched some tv and then i had to get ready for work.

i would've called out if i didn't cover someone's shift.

i never told you how much it meant to me that you came back and stayed with me while i was sick.

nobody had ever done that for me.

even if i was sick,

i still miss that time.

now we barely talk and your silence is deafening.

i miss you.

i really do.

i know you think that i don't miss you but after months of being in your life and you in mine...it's hard to not miss you.

i miss new years with you.