The next day at uni goes quick I make sure I'm not alone with Jay. He's been on my mind enough as it is. I record for Stiffy, he's pleased with my singing and that we only needed to do two takes.
I head into psychology after, everyone's more relaxed because the test is finished and it's almost Christmas break.
I walk over to them and they're actually talking to one another. Like friends would. They don't do that. Ever. I sit down quietly and smile. It's nice.
"Hey" I say sweetly
Ross touches my hand briefly and smiles back at me.
"You're in a great mood" he says."So are you two" I laugh.
"Good idea last night by the way" I turn to Jay. I try not to look at him most of the time because when I do I end up staring. He watches my expression reading what I'm thinking. He smiles and looks away happy with his findings.I need to talk to Rhea about all of this. I'm in trouble. I spend most of the lecture trying to work out what this all means, thinking of Jay. My relationship with Matty. I can't find any solutions just more problems.
The lecture ends and I look up.
"Are you guys coming later" I ask openly."Yes there's free champagne" Ross laughs.
"Maybe" Jay says.
"Okay cool it's at half 8 it's a gallery on broad street" I say.
"See you then I've gotta go talk to my English lecturer" Ross says. He puts his arms around me and kisses my cheek.
"What've you got now" I ask.
"I'm free" Jay says. So much for not being alone with him.
I smile and he walks me out.
We just start walking he hands me a cigarette and we end up in the cafe.
He gets a black coffee and asks me what I want. We go upstairs where it's empty. The fires are on and I choose to sit near one on the sofa. I put my bag down on the floor.
He sits next to me arm around me."Ross still loves you" he says softly.
"We've ended up in a weird place. I've spoken to him about it, he said he considers himself to be with me. And that worries me. I'm constantly hoping a really hot girl will come along and sweep him off his feet" I say.
"It's not just that with him" Jay says.
"He loves who you are" he adds."Ugh don't tell me that, I feel bad enough as it is" I say.
"Maybe you should" he says, here we go which Jay am I going to get today?
"I do" I say
He turns my face to his, commanding.
"Taylor I know you, I accept who you are. I will not change you. You're excellent the way you are. I don't just see the perfect side, I can see your darker side and I love it. I love all of it"
"I want it all and I won't pretend it's not there" he says.And it's like he's hit the nail on the head. That's what's different here.
"What do you want?" He asks as I stare at his face.
"You can say everything" he says.
"I can give you everything" he adds.I quickly look away from him and down into my lap. He positions my head back to looking at him.
"Uh no Taylor. This is more like a one time deal" he laughs.
"I'm joking but hey I've let you kiss me countless times and I haven't told a soul" he says.
"I won't say a thing" he looks at me."What do I want from you ?" I say. Thinking I need to consult council Rhea first before I say another word.
"What do you want from me, yes. Imagine there are no other obstacles just us" he says and he strokes my cheek.
"But there are other obstacles." I begin.
He shakes his head. "No" he smiles.
"I'm attracted to you Jay, that's clear." I say.
"But do you just feel that or more ?" He asks.
"More." I say softly and he sighs out of relief.
He kisses my cheek softly. Let's go of my face and smiles. I feel hot like I can't breathe. His eyes work magic on me and now he's not looking at me and I'm no longer under the influence I feel so sinful and treacherous.
"What do you want Jay" I ask him softly.
"I want to take you home right now and never ever let you leave, I want you and only you. I want you every morning and every night." He faces me again.
"Please can I kiss you properly" he asks.
I look into his clear blue eyes and I can't believe where we are. I feel completely different about him, I used to look into his eyes and think him cold. But now I see how piercing blue they are. I see his complexity, the darkness and the light of him. He strokes my arm and I shiver.I close the gap between us and press my lips to his. Before I listen to my head shouting at me I deepen the kiss, his tongue is in my mouth. I put my hands in his hair and I'm surprised at how soft it is.
He breaks away from me.
"That was perfect" he says and he strokes my lips.
I get the feeling I'm in a lot more trouble.
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Choose Me- the second novel
Ρομαντική"I know you, I accept who you are. I will not change you. You're excellent the way you are. I don't just see the perfect side, I can see your darker side and I love it. I love all of it...I want it all and I won't pretend it's not there" Taylor fin...